Okay. I know this may seem like a very melodramatic way to start my post, but its just me inking out loud.
A had a revelation earlier:
I am pretty good at being a professional Christian
And you're going: Sayyy whaaaat?!!
Lol Allow me to explain :)
What I mean is: I know all the Praise&Worship songs, I attend church more regularly than a regular, I am involved and committed. I run a Connect group. I am a member of a Family Group. I don't drink. I don't smoke. I'm not in a sexual relationship, nor do I desire one until I am married. Ive pretty much got this whole Christian thing waxed hey.
Ya... pretty much...hey...
But what do any of this mean, when I'm in hot water?
Okay before I go any further, I'm not saying that all the stuff Ive just mentioned is replaceable or not important. In fact, the Bible speaks of all of the above and God desires for us to fellowship with each other, be a part of a church body and live lives holy and wholly unto Him. So all of the stuff I just said in paragraph 1 are awesome and good and stuff. But what I am trying to say, without really saying it, is that all of those things WITHOUT a relationship with God is empty. Having a relationship with HIM is what this whole Christian thing is all about. I can follow all the rules and laws and stuff, and do it because I have to - and I will be as empty as the reasons behind why I'm doing them. Without relationship, all the doing becomes... well.. just DOING. And as someone once told me.. We are human BEINGS and not human DOINGS.
Hmm... Okay I forget where I am going with this :)
But what I want to say is this: I have reached this point in my walk with God, where all of the "doings" are done because I want to live a live poured out for Him.
But still in moments like these... moments where you're going through nonsense... deep and utter nonsense... no matter what you're "doing" or "not doing"... the only thing that sticks out and is most important to you is your RELATIONSHIP with Him... because knowing Him is the only thing that can get you through it.
I was reading Colossians last night (it was sooo random), and came across some awesome words. I'm going to stick them at the bottom, coz I'm on a roll right now :)
But yaaaa people.
When you know God in a deeper way, even when you're in a really broken place, you're still held together by His love and grace to the point where you cant ignore the fact that everythings going to be okay because He's gots dis.
says that all the present suffering does not compare to all the glory to come.
And Phillipans 1:16
says that God will never ever end in a negative...
He will complete all the good He has promised you. Your situation will never end badly... He doesn't roll like that. If things seem pretty dull to you right now, just hang on and trust in Him coz that just means that the good parts are still in process. But there is no way that you're ending in that dank place. Its not how God works. He will take that setback and disappointment and turn it around in Your favor. Because you belong to Him and He wont allow His kideos to be left in the lurch.
Isn't He awsome??!
Having a relationship with God totally changed my life.
I dont know how I'd make it through one day without Him.
Ahhh.. that felt good :)
Be blessed ya'll.
Oh and read the Colossians stuff below.
Christ holds it all together
Jesus was supreme in the beginning
and—leading the resurrection parade—he is supreme in the end. From beginning to
end he's there, towering far above everything, everyone. So spacious is he, so
roomy, that everything of God finds its proper place in him without crowding.
Not only that, but all the broken and dislocated pieces of the universe—people
and things, animals and atoms—get properly fixed and fit together in vibrant
harmonies, all because of his death, his blood that poured down from the cross.