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Pardy hardy

I know I've been quiet of late, but I'm not feeling that amazingly amazing. 
And I honestly always find it difficult to blog about any hardship or heartache or just plain crap that I go through, because I feel like it contradicts what I believe in.
But I sure as heck will blog about my breakthrough...when it happens.

I think that I am in a season where its just before the finished line for this season, but I kinda have to keep pushing and keep going ... through the fatigue, through the cramps, through the junk in my mind, through the crazy people on the side lines making me feel like I suck...
Its easier than it sounds.
I mean, I feel like giving up SO many times!
But God keeps reminding me that He has a plan and a purpose.
Hes like... "I know what I'm doing child!"

Ive got so many questions and so many little holes in my heart that needs plasters ... I literally feel like my joy is seeping out... :)
Yeah yeah yeah joy comes in the morning hahahahahaha 
Im laughing coz its crazy-wonderful coz you really cant be a Christian and be depro at the same time. Coz the Holy Spirits always hanging around, reminding you that all the negative stuff you're hearing in your head is just: "lies and you know it!"
And you're like... aaaack, but I wana hava pity party and feel sorry for myself!
LOL its wack.
Its like, we need to feel sorry for ourselves to make ourselves feel better even though we arent really feeling better.

In other news: Ive been wearing the same long black socks for the past 3 days.
Whaaaat? They are warm :)

Now that thats off my chest, let me go and NOT have a pity party!
Woohoo!! No pardy over here!

Love, Peace and Harmony

“But thanks be to God, Who in Christ always leads us in triumph...”
(2 Corinthians 2:14, AMP)


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