"If the flesh that I
fight is at best only light and momentary,
then of course I'll feel nude when to where I'm destined I'm
compared"
This is a song by Brooke
Fraser... Actually its titled "C.S. Lewis Song"... so for all I know,
she took those words from a Lewis poem/writing. But regardless, as I was
contemplating writing a post this morning, I heard those words, and I was
like... I need to to post that. So I did. Ta daaah.
The phrase totally speaks
to where I'm at right now... fighting the flesh, trying to digg deeper into the spirit,
feeling nude and unprepared. when I compare myself to whats ahead. I think that
one of the constants 'bout being a saint, is that you never feel GOOD enough.
Sure you feel loved and accepted coza Jesus. But you never feel worthy. You
never feel like you're praying enough or reading the Word enough or just being
in His presence enough. Well, thats how I feel anyways... dont know about
ya'll.
Now, I know that there is no
condemnation in Christ, but yaaa I dont know if I would ever feel like Im
doing it all right. I think Ima live my life always hoping and trying to
please God more than what I think that I am, in my current state.
Ooh I wrote a song a while
ago.. it just came to mind.
Ima share... This is the bridge:
Before
I arrive, I see traces of the One
In
the distance preparing it for when I come
And I
see “hope” and “prosperity” bold on the sign
That
He holds up, with my name on the dotted line
And
because I am His, I know that it’s mine
xxxL