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"If the flesh that I fight is at best only light and momentary,
then of course I'll feel nude when to where I'm destined I'm compared" 

This is a song by Brooke Fraser... Actually its titled "C.S. Lewis Song"... so for all I know, she took those words from a Lewis poem/writing. But regardless, as I was contemplating writing a post this morning, I heard those words, and I was like... I need to to post that. So I did. Ta daaah. 

The phrase totally speaks to where I'm at right now... fighting the flesh, trying to digg deeper into the spirit, feeling nude and unprepared. when I compare myself to whats ahead. I think that one of the constants 'bout being a saint, is that you never feel GOOD enough. Sure you feel loved and accepted coza Jesus. But you never feel worthy. You never feel like you're praying enough or reading the Word enough or just being in His presence enough. Well, thats how I feel anyways... dont know about ya'll. 

Now, I know that there is no condemnation in Christ, but yaaa I dont know if I would ever feel like Im doing it all right. I think Ima live my life always hoping and trying to please God more than what I think that I am, in my current state. 

Ooh I wrote a song a while ago.. it just came to mind. 
Ima share...  This is the bridge: 

Before I arrive, I see traces of the One
In the distance preparing it for when I come
And I see “hope” and “prosperity” bold on the sign
That He holds up, with my name on the dotted line
And because I am His, I know that it’s mine



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